putot + ninja = PUNJA

long time no post

2010-06-25T04:18:00.000-07:00

i've been making use of my time with significant things lately so i'm showing you pictures of what i've made so far..

these are some of the accessories i made for my sis in Switzerland. made more but i don't have the pictures. maybe i'll do that later. ;)

This one's a bikini top made from two used shirts.

i haven't worn this outside yet. i want to make adjustments :)

and this one was damaged to i added little details to cover up the mess.

this an Artwork shirt and everyone has it and i thought it was boring so i added a little twist

this is an old shirt and like the other one, a lot of people has the same shirt and people like me don't like that. so taraaaa!

English Homework

2009-08-07T05:32:00.000-07:00

July 27, 2009

Mancao, Maria Louella

AB-Mass Communication I

English I

MWF (9:00-10:00 AM)

“The Most Important Thing in My Life”

God gave us abundance of everything we ever needed and it’s up to us how to use it but we are held responsible of our deeds. In my case, I am blessed with loving family, good friends, self-proclaimed talents and I’m pretty sure there’s more to come. But aside from these, there is one thing I claim to be the most important in my life.

I’d say it is the pen and paper. I believe that writing is a healthy outlet for my feelings in a way that I don’t get myself into trouble or anyone else hurt. I write of the things that make my day and escape from a devastating event, mostly, in form of songs. By then I won’t get mad for a long time. I, too, speak out my point of view in issues, not by just saying it out loud, but as well as writing it. I also let my imagination get off my head through drawing which I find very effective to enhance my skills and at the same time enjoy my free time alone. I also have fun sketching places I dream of going and things that I want to happen in my life. Whenever I feel rejected or aloof, I make it to a point that I don’t get lonely because life is too short to spend half of it in grief. And in writing or just simple scribbling, I come up with a good relief from my dilemmas. And somehow, I wish to be a big part of history through making noise with only a pen and paper which shall raise the concern of the many. I really hope someday I will.

x-x-x

Blessings. Most of the Time, They Come to You in Disguise.

2009-07-09T07:51:00.001-07:00

June 6, 2009, the date set to give me another chance to improve myself. Southwestern University had the same feel since i last visited it. It's only that there were more foreign aliens than familiar faces. There was a little rush inside me but it wasn't like it was when i was younger; less impure. But still, I felt like i was at home; a place i'm comfortable moving in.

When i first saw the group of people that i know i'll be dealing with for the whole semester, my expectations fell apart. Most of them were from places i've never been and they were far; very far from the city, from the lifestyle I'm used to. I'm not being mean but i just wanted to meet people i can relate to. And then weeks passed by and i learned to like these people. They were not what i wanted but they were way better; less corrupt, not ignorant; less complicated, not demeaning. They had simple wants and were happy to get their simple needs.

They've done nothing to me but they gave me a realization that smiling over the littlest things, such as a piece of bread, is way better than owning the biggest of companies; being famous; having every'thing' you want. Not that these things are no good compared to a piece of bread, but of the thought that there's contentment having that bread and a smile knowing that it can be shared anytime without losing anything but greed.

I've also learned that nobody is less to anyone. We are all made up of mud made to life, and we'll all be back to ashes in the end.
Not bigger, not smaller.
Not smarter, Not challenged.
Not stronger, not weaker.
Not richer, not poorer.
Not more, not less.
Because we'll all be judged fairly. Some will be rewarded, though most will perish.
But in the end, we'll pay.

LAYOUT SAMPLE (for TVJQ)

2009-04-19T11:30:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah..i know.. i have graduated already but that doesn't mean i can't work with the editorial staff any longer!haha But hopefully, we'll have this year's issue printed by next month! *sigh* a lot of work on this issue! I did a short story, a poem (no problemo!haha), the cover story, and a feature article, not to mention the cover layout and comic strips! waaaaaaaa! i'm not done with the final touches yet but i feel accomplished already! lol.. anyway, i hafta sleep now..i got loads of other businesses to deal with tomorrow! :D

Here are the samples:

front cover

back cover

Katy Perry wanna-be ^_______^

2009-04-15T02:46:00.000-07:00

One of the Boys - Katy Perry [punja]




"One of the Boys"

I saw a spider, I didn't scream
'Cause I can belch the alphabet, just double-dog-dare me
And I chose guitar over ballet
And I'll take these suckers down, 'cause they just get in my way

The way you look at me
Is kinda like a little sister
You high-five your goodbyes
And it leaves me nothing but blisters

So I don't wanna be one of the boys, one of your guys
Just give me a chance to prove to you tonight
That I just wanna be one of the girls
Pretty in pearls, not one of the boys

So over summer, something changed
I started reading "Seventeen" and shaving my legs,
And I study "Lolita" religously.
And I walked right into school and caught you staring at me

'Cause I know what you know
But now you're gonna have to take a number
It's okay, maybe one day
But not until you give me my diamond ring

'Cause I don't wanna be one of the boys, one of your guys
Just give me a chance to prove to you tonight
That I just wanna be your homecoming queen
Their poster dream, not one of the boys

I wanna be a flower, not a dirty weed
I wanna smell like roses, not a baseball team
And I swear maybe one day
You're gonna wanna make out, make out, make out with me

(Don't wanna be)
Don't wanna be
(Don't wanna be)
Don't wanna be
(Don't wanna be)

'Cause I don't wanna be one of the boys, one of your guys
Just give me a chance to prove to you tonight
That I just wanna be one of the girls
Pretty in pearls, not one of the boys

LENT x(

2009-04-10T07:12:00.000-07:00

I had my first 'visita iglesia' experience the other night.
We first went to Sto. Rosario Church, with my family, for a mass. Then we stopped over a fastfood **Jollibee to fill up.

Then we (with my sis) separated ways. They went straight back home while we bought snacks and drinks at a nearby grocery. We then meet-up ate Mimi and kuya Kiko at the Guadalupe church where we started to pray the first two Stations of the cross. Here are the following churches we went to then:

Capitol Parish - Stations III and IV
St. Therese Church - Stations V and VI
San Carlos Seminary - Stations VII and VIII
Carmelite - Stations Stations IX and X
Mabolo Church - the remaining 4 stations

(shern, ern-ern , jern)

(Kern and Shern)

Back on Track!

2009-04-08T20:53:00.000-07:00

sheesh..i was thinking what day it is today, that's soo not good coz i can't remember x(

anyways..i haven't posted for a long time.(4 months is a long time!)
but i don't wanna make this long. I just wanna post essential events for the past couple months of my life. The PC's motherboard broke down, actually, and that's one good reason why i couldn't even check my blogs. and now i hope it's back for good.

I just graduated last month**thrill! lels ..and i miss my folks there. My highschool was really something i will never forget nor regret! Though most of my friends are going to the same school as i am, i know it won't be the same anymore. I thought of taking up HRM since it's what i thought was nearest to the course i wanted, Fine Arts. i'd love to take that course but financial problems forbid me from doing so. But i understand these stances, well atleast i can still go to a private college.

But when i asked a friend to ask about Fine Arts in USC, she blurted something about advertisement and painting majors. And just when i heard of it, MASS COMMUNICATIONS came out of my mind. And yeah, your right, i'm taking that up. It's not that i want to be a reporter or an anchor. I just wanna be a journalist or write things that matter. And i really really really want to be a part of the movie-industry or even in indie films. But i'm not putting out chances of working in a radio station with those statements. xp ! i'd love to be a DJ soon.haha

I'm also a part of the school mag..as you might have seen in my older posts. And now we're still trying to compile and arrange stuff there. I've passed a short story already..and i've a got poem here too..But now i'm working on a feature article. It's about 10 fundamentals in changing the world from Gandhi's words of wisdom. I'm done making the 4th one now. I saw it online..and i'm just going to change all of the writer's paragraphs and use Gandhi's and make my own instead. It's quite interesting and i've learned to love Gandhi's words. It's just so calm. lels..haha

anyhoo..IT's lenten season today and i'm going with ate shak and her friends for 'visitacion', as much as i could remember, that's what they said.

so make way people, i'm BACK ON TRACK! xD

more than good, less than bad

2008-12-27T03:54:00.000-08:00

more than good, less than bad - punja

Stanza I
When every good thing becomes bitter
And every dream you had starts to shatter
And all you do doesn't seem to matter
All you have to do is remember
The better side of life; remember
That all these will only pass you by

Chorus:
Because at the end of the day
before you close your eyes
You'll only have to pray
That things will be better the next time
It will be better
It will be better

Stanza II
When your dad thinks you're too clever
And he doesn't trust you anymore
Just think: are you really who you were before?
All you have to do is remember
The baby your dad loved; remember
Does he deserve to be stood up on and get hurt?

Chorus:
Because at the end of the day
Before you close your eyes
You'll only have to say
"i'm sorry, i'll be better the next time"
I'll be better
I'll be better

Stanza III
When you think you're weird enough to be cool
you're mom reacts, you'd lie; thinkin' she's fooled
Don't you know, she knows you much too well
All you have to do is remember
You won't be where you are if not for her

Chorus:
Because at the end of the day
Before you close your eyes
You'll only have to say
"i love you and you make me better everytime"

Because at the end of our lives
Before we close our eyes
We'll only have to see
We've got everyone; everything we want
And everything we need
By our sides
By our sides

I'll be better
You'll be better
We'll all be better
We'll all be better
Oh better

12-19-08 (another day to live for)

2008-12-17T14:49:00.000-08:00

It feels like it's been years since i've last posted here! well, it's the holiday seasons already and i'm so busy this very moment. we'll have our HS days today and the Christmas party is gonna be tomorrow. i'm excited but i don't feel the Christmas that much yet, though it's just days before it. So, anyways, i've started to go to 'Misa de Gallo' (simbang gabi). i really don't know why they call it that when it's always at dawn. it could've been simbang buntag or kadlawn!haha.. and now that i've started attending the first three masses (today), i don't wanna miss one dawn coz i'm trying to complete the nine masses:D ..they say that you can make a wish after completing it (and most say their wishes do happen!). but i'm not really after that (maybe a little:p) i'm so much after the experience coz this is my first time and i got addicted to it! lol .. i also want to drink hot chocolate (sikwate) they sold there! i have so much to say but i have to cut it short coz i still have to go school right now. we still have to practice for the mass dance. i promise to share more when i have more time!

GTG:D

-elle

yeah

2008-09-20T05:22:00.000-07:00

The exams ended yesterday and i'm not in relief. It's all because of the new pressure this fashion show is hanging up on me. My classmates chose me to represent our section for the fashion show on wednesday, which is just four days to go and we haven't made a thing yet. The thing is, we have to make up a design made out of trash or as they call it, indigenous materials. So we've got the design, the make-up idea, and all the accessory designs, but we haven't started yet. And i think that's big of a deal. So i'm really nervous and pressured.
so yeah, i guess i'll just do what i can!

SCREWED!

2008-09-13T05:05:00.000-07:00

My week was alright. I guess a teacher vulgarly scolding me in front of a bunch of classmates in school is 'alright'. But i don't feel 'OKAY' because actually, i feel harassed. I know it's natural but the way it felt was like, i'm no person who get to make mistakes once in a while. I tried my very best to have the best attitude towards other people. And for just some reason like talking out loud and sitting on the floor, my whole self gets insulted for more than half an hour! And i don't think being a teacher is enough to do that to someone like me. And not just that, I really don't care much about the scolding or whatever, it's the insult and humiliation. But what happened is no big deal to me now. I dunno why i get so mad or frustrated at something and just minutes later, i just can't care less. I guess i'm no good at grudge-keeping. And i think that that's a good thing, but not all the time. Because if i'll always be like that, then everyone would just do wrong to me thinking i won't fight back. So anyways, i'm expecting a HUGE and LOUD critism for my stupid and unfortunately bad behavior this Monday.

wish me luck!

from what was to what is

2008-09-12T04:12:00.000-07:00

Just recently, Jane, a friend, asked me about blogging which made me miss it.
it's been quite a long time since I've last left a post in my blog so now, i'm trying to recap stuff that has happened.
Well, i don't know how to start. a lot has happened in the past few weeks, from the songs i've made, to the aches of the heart.

"Linking Verb"
Just a month ago, Nephi (from the next classroom/ friend) has showed me a tune and asked me to make lyrics for it. And days after, I've managed to complete the whole song. It's entitled 'Fight Back'. A lot of my friends and classmates, pretty much liked it. And i'm so flattered:). And after that, Nephi kept on making new sounds, so i, too, made new pieces of this young art of music we're striving to make. And so we've made two more songs: 'Dear Friend' and the other one has no title yet (it's harder than you think it is!)
With just less than a month, we've made songs and we don't even have a band yet! Tell me I'm a show off, but really, i'm just so proud!haha
And while our friends were listening to our songs, they came up with the a band name 'Linking Verb'. It was some sort of a joke but there's nothing bad about it, is there?lol
so now, we're still trying to make the songs better and record it soon. We've actually recorded one but i still don' t have the copy since it was put in a phone. Though the record copy wasn't as good as a studio's, i think it still works since i'm not even in a band and we had that song just two weeks ago. So ask me how i got those lyrics so fast in my mind..ASK me how!!!lol (the answer is the on the next chapter..lmao)

"The Inspiration"
It's really true that if you have an immense feeling or a strong emotion, words will rush out from your mouth or your pen or the keyboards or whatever; and i can prove that!
To tell you the truth, i'm childish. I'm that type of kid who doesn't care if i ran too fast or talk too loud or even laugh in an unacceptably absurd way. But with this feeling that got me hooked into, i expected for everything to change but NO. Even if i have this special something, i still am PUNJA. The crazy senior student who acts like a first grader. The happy-go-lucky gal who runs over at people, says sorry, and runs again. And i just love the way that is. It makes proof that i am still who i am even if i have this blood pumping craze over this guy. And it just makes me glad that i don't have to be someone else for him. But you know what, if i won't write lyrics or whatever to express my feelings, then i think i wouldn't be able to do things the way i do them. Because i wouldn't have an output for this head-spinning sensation in my heart.
So just you know, i really don't care about the 'happy ever after' endings because for the first time, even if this guy totally keeps me from sleeping, i still pray for him to be happy and have whatever or whoever he likes. And it amazes me how i don't pray much about him getting to like me. I just want to be there for him as a friend :) (really..swear!)

I think i've spoken out too much about this heart-of-mine-loco..so until then, BYE!

i kissed a girl (cover)

2008-08-06T01:21:00.000-07:00

Made this on my papa's burdii with apple..we were just bored:)hehe

the NEGLECTED who WASN'T

2008-06-28T04:13:00.000-07:00

After this weekend and a day after, another month will be officially over. Time flew fast by me, but for a short period of time, i've learned a gazillion things and i know i've made a better being of myself. I've kept myself hidden beneath the shadows of my imperfections that, i, myself cannot escape. I've lived my whole life thinking of my flaws, that i have over-looked my better side. But just when i thought that my life was senseless and that i was another background character, i saw the faces of the masses i've long ignored. With just a blink of my blind eyes, i saw the grinning faces of my friends whom i've made laughing with a simple phrase that has come out of my mouth unplanned.

The next day i skipped school to buy my school uniform and some books. That afternoon, as i walked myself to the rooms of another school family, they gave me an approach i did not quite expect. Most of them asked where i was, why i wasn't present, where i have been and so on. And the next day, i wore my PE uniform with much excitement. Until later that day, the teacher announced that PE uniforms were compulsory. I was surprised with their reactions and what some of them said. It came up to me that they were blaming me because they thought that if not for me, the whole batch would have agreed on not buying the set and that they could've still begged the principal's decision. And because of all that commotion (plus abnormalon pa jud tawn ko..kai pebrero, saputon usahay) i cried . Not vulgarly in front of them of course, i'm not aiming for attention. I made the mixed emotions out of my system by wetting up my face with tears in the comfort rooms. But then i had to stop and go back for the class. I tried to hide, but they noticed. And they asked and i saw concern in their faces and expressions, that they would hit whoever has done wrong to me. On that same time i felt rejected, i did feel IMPORTANT . Because with the three years of being in the same school with 60 plus same batch mates, i never thought i meant something to them. And now, though there's no ample proof, i trust they do love me!:D and i hope they all know how much they mean to me:).

to all my friends in swu:
i love all of you guys! and that is not about to change. I will never forget how each one of you gave your shares as being a part of my life. you made me feel special and i hope i'm making you feel the same way, too. for our last year together as classmates, let's make the best of our days!!! yahoooooo!!!
i lalab you all!! (tight hugs and kisses!)
bilib jud ko ninyu kai mga WARYORS jud mo!!LONG LEEEEEB!!!!!hahahahahaha

===punja

'FRANK'

2008-06-21T01:29:00.000-07:00

Early this week, the weather was blazing hot! People's sweat flowed on their faces as i walked by them. And i could feel the intense heat they felt, as i too, was in the middle of the crisis. As the days went by, the wind grew colder and little droplets fell slowly every minute. A little more time passed and the droplets fell harder and it rained hard. This time, i had the chance to wear our jackets and sweaters which were kept hanging for a long time now.

Yesterday, my attention was caught by the commotion happening on the stairway to the third floor (where our room is at); classes were suspended that afternoon. But before i could leave, we were called by the CAT officers for an urgent meeting. Together with the 9th graders, i went in the room where everyone else was at. Officers announced that the 9th graders were to join our year level in the CAT presentation, and it was compulsory. And after that almost-an-hour meeting, i went with Marrah, Kaye and Joanna to go buy plain white shirts for the CAT the next day. I ran home and they waited at a store nearby. We went to Sacred Heart Hospital first because Marrah wanted an X-ray of her ankle (to excuse her from CAT) but the school physician wasn't around so we went to Gaisano or whatever it was (i don't really know Colon that good). We bought really cheap shirts there, a plain shirt for 79.75 bucks! But if i was to choose, i'd rather buy from Ukay2..hahahaha. We joked around the mall, together with Marrah's cousins, we made pranks on other people, like (it's hard to explain..hahaha..we are the only ones who can understand ourselves.. because it's like, we have our own world when we're together..hahaha) so anyhoo, we planned to go to CIT to visit some folks but there came 'FRANK', the typhoon 'who' ruinned our plans; my plans. So we went home.

TODAY, I woke up 4 in the morning and slept again and woke up at 5 and tried sleeping again and finally i stood up at 5:50 phew! I was that excited. I took a bath with a freezing cold bucket of water. Then i did little C.A.T. actions (whatever they call it) in front of the mirror and made my mom laugh again. I really like making my mom and pa laugh. :D I am actually not gonna do any of those actions in the actual CAT presentation because i am assigned "medic" due to my medical conditions (the stainless steel on my left shoulder, dude, and it sucks!) But i'll try to be less useless though..i SWEAR! Then i called Marrah telling her to get ready. And so i walked myself to school. But before i could walk through the school gates, the guard denied my entrance. It is all because of 'FRANK'!!! ***sigh:(

The excitement i felt was not just because i wanted to do C.A.T., i felt like i was after something or maybe someone,either way, i really can't tell. Last night, i drew a really good picture of somebody. But i'm not sure who it was. It was a guy with a hood-jacket on and just some plain guy. Maybe it was someone who came out from my want of meeting someone (not specifically a guy) who can meet my standards, maybe 'standards' ain't the right word; it's more of expectations. I'm not looking for something or someone to complete me; for i know with GOD alone, i am COMPLETE! I just pray that He will always guide me and my family in all that we go through!AMEN!!!!!

another school day to stand..

2008-06-16T02:50:00.000-07:00

SCHOOL!
I woke up with a heavy heart today. It seems like i've stolen something from someone; i felt guilty. But i tried my very best to hide that hideous feeling of guilt inside me. And i started this day with a prayer:) .

Today was just an ordinary day, full of memories for me to keep as this is the last year of my high school life. Classes weren't that serious because there are no schedules yet, though some teachers have started some review lessons, most of the time we were busy talking and blah blah! It was 8 in the morning, Chevey and i were talking about some gay guys until she pointed to the door near me, i saw a kid with curly hair, tight-fitting jeans, belt bag and a black shirt worn not halfway down but just up to his neck with a white undershirt, and Chevey said in a loud voice, "hala si Totol!". He was another transferee, though an old elementary student, he was as coy as someone who has been in home school since birth! It was weird that he was THAT shy even if he knew most of us who used to be his classmates before and who graduated elementary with him. But i can't really judge him with just that. And then he came in the room from the back door. They teased him to me. They always do that with almost everybody new. Maybe b'coz i don't get mad easily. But i'm fine with that.:D

Later today, i sat with Jo-ane and Jessa. Just like everybody else in the room, we talked and laughed and joked around:p . And then we noticed that 'kid' again. So we thought of talking to him, but Jessa ended up talking to him instead. She went near him and said..

jessa: hi..asa diay ka gikan?
kid: sa among balay..
jessa: di ba..asa nga skul?
kid: sa iskwelahan..
jessa: hehe..di ba asa nga skul ba?
kid: sa iskwelahan..

(we were laughing then)
and then the kid stood up walking straight to the door and as he was walking, he raised his hand making the sign : TALK TO THE HAND!..and we were awed!
and when Jo-ane and i looked back to Jessa, she had changed her smiling face into a dismayed one! YEAH! It really was rude for him to do that. Maybe he doesn't know what that meant..maybe he didn't know how bad it was and how hurt Jessa was..

But later, as the bell rang 4, we were told to go down to the oval for the CAT. woohooo! And down we marched. We were divided to groups of different numbers. I was with Keesha and Jessa; and we were under Sido. He was a good commander and he wasn't that strict. And then after a couple of minutes, i felt a soring sensation on my left shoulder, where my stainless steel is at. Then a few more minutes later, i heard a cracking sound! haha..it really hurts! But i really stood the pain though. And tomorrow, i'll try to bring my papa to the office, so that i'd have exceptions and be considered; or maybe become the medic. At least there'll be less 'tuntunkanan naaaaaaa!!' for me..haha

Another school day tomorrow..oh, i remembered,tomorrow, we're gonna continue the explanation on the first subject in the morning for our drawings in Filipino! And i'm gonna be last, i don't wanna be saved by the bell coz i don't want to keep my nervous feeling for long.

so that's all for now;
PUNJA

first week of SCHOOL babeeeh!!!

2008-06-13T02:38:00.000-07:00

The night before the first day of school didn't feel that exciting, unlike others who might haven't sleep coz of the longing to see their classmates and all. But then the excitement got into my veins when i saw Marrah and Claire approaching me, and we went together to school. I wore shorts and my pink southern-rock long sleeves with red-white striped undershirt. And we were so late that no one was in the lobby anymore. Then we saw everyone else in the 2nd room (they weren't sectioned yet) . They were like "punja!!!" hahahaha..and then i saw the new student sitting near the door but his face wasn't new to me. I've seen him before coz his sister's the ex-girlfriend of somebody i know. And later that day, we were divided into two sections...but unluckily (sadly), Marrah and i were separated through those thick white walls; we were in different rooms. We tried to swap sections but the principal said "NO!". But it's okay, i still had fun with my other classmates (sabay lng gud!).

The next day, two more transferee students came. One was Shayne in our section and the other was JM at peacock's. Shayne introduced herself and she mentioned that she likes singing, so as a typical pinoy attitude of asking for samples, she was forced to sing. But she sang good anyway. They made me sing too(bugal-bugal ba!). hahaha...yeah i sang but it was all a big JOKE!hahaha

Anyways, we had our homeroom-officers election this morning. Chevey was elected mayor! YEY! my seatmate!hahaha ..and Tambulort (kenji) was nominated in all the officer ranks..(he nominated himself). That chubby "brad" of mine always has something to say, though non-sense, they have humor!hahaha..and i was nominated as "prince charming" hahaha..(intawn!) but i was elected as MMO (matud pang aljo 'Most Mongoloid Officer') HAHA!!!

And then we had a mass and had no classes in the afternoon.
I hope i can get better grades this year:D
AJA!

That's all for now.
-elle

strummin...

2008-06-07T07:25:00.000-07:00

..STRINGS..

yeah, i'm gonna talk stuff about the guitar and how i fell in love with this instrument:p

i first imagined myself holding a guitar on-stage and singing when i saw Hayley (paramore) play live, NOT. haha..it was as early as when i was 5 and i saw my sister play it like some pro (for me) but this urge got stronger when i saw Hayley years later. I felt like there's a need for me to learn how to play strings. It's not like i wanna become like her (have a band and all that). It's just that that time i was in search for who i was and what i am going to be (puberty stage..haha) and when i saw her i said in my mind, "someday, i'll discover myself, see who i am and what i really want..music" and it wasn't because she was cool or anything, i just saw her become who she managed herself to be and i really really want myself to have what most people lack, uniqueness and originality.

But later, i realized that everyone is unique, one way or another. Though most kids today look like clones (no offense:D), God made each one of us different from one another. And i know that i am different, you are different, even twins are different. I once thought that if i learn how to play the guitar maybe i'd stand out but no, i was wrong. Playing is not about standing out or becoming a better being, it was my desire to play it and to sing along with the tunes i make.

I first learned to put my fingers on those dots and non-hand-friendly strings when i asked my sisters to teach me, i was already 14 (guwang na!). Then i learned songs but i still can't do it good enough and then i stopped because my hands really hurt bad and my mind was like "this looks easy but why can't i do it?". And then months later i missed holding that piece of wood so i tried playing again. That time i felt comfortable with it, though it still hurts a bit. And then my sister, Tzie went to Switzerland with Aries and nobody else had the time to teach me. So i tried to learn on my own but later on, i got tired and stopped.

This summer, my sister and i stayed in the same room. If we were at home, we had to be on that room for the whole day and it would be awkward if we just stared at each other so yeah, we talk and surf the net and sing, and laugh, and play MAIDS..ako amo xa maid..haha..athek lng. She enrolled into summer classes while i stayed inside the room for like two months and i only had the chance to go out if i had to buy something or if we went to church. IT WAS BORING!!! So i spent my days browsing bla blahs, writing stuff,having strict diet (tsar) and nothing else. Until their classes were over and she had the time to teach me how to play the guitar,YAY! i still had one month to spend my summer in something relevant so i have made two songs now, though they're not good, i'm still proud that i've done something other than sleeping and eating.

I don't play the guitar well, i can't even play hard-to-play songs but i'm still trying to learn how to play a song without chords, just listening to it. My siblings make me jealous:(, coz they all play well. (pero ok lang..mada pag cheese burger)

Now, classes are gonna start after two days, and i really wanna share my songs. Like, i wanna see the impressions on their faces, whether they like it or not. But i don't really wanna show off coz there's nothing to boast anyway..haha..

I hope the first day of school's going to be A-OKAY! OLRAYT! ayus ba bords..hahaha

-elle-

a complete version

2008-05-29T15:41:00.000-07:00

so here's the complete version of 'make-believe'.
ugh..it took me more than an hour to finish this.
my back hurts real bad but i hope it's worth watching/listening:D

make them astray

2008-05-29T13:07:00.000-07:00

i've made another song.
haha..made an experiment with the movie maker.
hope you like it:D

the 'GEEK-face'

2008-05-26T00:50:00.000-07:00

[my green glasses]

Just got them a minute ago. Ugh its depressing to know my mom paid 700 bucks for the lenses and a hundred for the frames, but it helps. At first i feel like stumbling or something. Now i'm trying to get used to it:D . i really look like jerk wearing this..DAMMIT!!!>:p

the CAR-CAR escapade

2008-05-25T03:42:00.000-07:00

[ate shak and me]

i was awaken by a tap on my thighs, it was my mom. She was trying to wake me and my sister. Coz we were planning to go to Car-car for the fiesta. And so there we went. It was my first time to ride on a bus and i really had an amazing time sitting beside my sister who was sitting next to the window[dammit]haha..

[mama, me and papa with the very old house at the background]

[on the way to the church]

[me and my mom]

so we stopped and the bus dropped us off at the Car-car church. It was really cool being so old and so splendid after all those years have passed over it. When we got in the church, there was a baptism going on and there were a lot of kids all over the place. So we just sat there and mom lit candles. Then we took pictures, too.

[the kids(cat cat cat haha)]

[me, mama and papa at gaisano Car-car]

And then we went to gaisano to meet Alsfyr (he's a nephew of the one who invited us there). And we rode off to their house which was really nice. It had a big garden in front and the design of the inside of the house was really cute too. We ate there and all that. We took pics and blah blah. I took off my retainers coz it really hurts very very muchos! And it rained so we went in the house and they made me sing there(karaoke/videoke).[the garden]

[the flowers were very cute]

I picked flowers there too. They were lovely. And i sang there like i was in some sort of MTV music video.LOL.(no one hears me though ang2 man sad amaw!)

[looks like a market to me..hehe]

A little later we waved goodbye and went to the market. Vendors approached us with their good stuff like ampaw, chicharon, bukhayo, and many more. We went in the part of the market where everything they sold was "lichon". I was mesmerized with the unique place, it was wonderful.DANG! haha..we bought lichon too. I t tastes really really good! And then we went home (we rode the bus again:D).

[ate took a picture of me before we left urgello]

That's all for now.

-lablab; punja

the BECOMING

2008-05-24T02:04:00.000-07:00

Since i was a kid, i've always had a pretty smile, not until the day i lost both my front teeth and had these ugly ones permanently grow. As a kid, i would never mind what other people had to say, with that, i ignored the 'about-to-be-monstrosity' my teeth will become. When i turned 10 i notice how different my teeth were compared to others and this time i realized that bucked-teeth don't look good, i realized that i don't look good:( .

At a young age i felt depression. I felt so ugly, though i didn't dream of being some beauty queen, i really had very low self-esteem...maybe i never had self-esteem. By then i've always related myself to the girls in the show "The Swan" where geeks, nerds, in other words, the 'not good looking' would undergo cosmetic surgery and would have their bucked teeth operated, their bellies tucked in, and their whole selves changed.

Also when i was studying my early grade school in Lahug Elementary School, i had criticism. My classmates would call me names but i never got into fights because i was always the nice kid. At this time, i was always bullied. My classmates would tell me to do this and that, draw this and that, and make their assignments. My mom was a school teacher in our school but i never used her to abuse others like how they have hurt me and i never told her. I was always the funny and happy kid in school. The one who doesn't study but still get in the top ten. The one who joins dance, art, singing and academic competitions. The one who represents the school together with some other fellow students but believe it or not, i never believed in myself. I never thought that i was someone unique. I always felt like i'm not good enough and i will never be.

One time, in third-grade, i was sitting on my seat doing the usual talking with my classmates[Essem,Fellnah,Limbert]. And then my teacher [Ms. Malinao] said, "Class, lain diay ko class? Sadista diay ko class? naa lagey parent nga nireklamo tungod kai lain daw mig (referring to our grade level teachers) batasan kai mamili mig students. Naa juy mama sa inyung classmates ngari ai.nga..blah blah blah..". And so i really didn't have any idea who she was talking about. I looked around and tried to ask my classmates but they all whispered to one another looking at me. Being the innocent kid, i didn't get it! Until the bell rang and still nobody, i mean nobody talked to me. I was some sort of alien they were all scared to talk to. By that time, i realized that i was the one my teacher was talking about. By then on, my teachers treated me differently. Only my favorite teacher [Ms. Estella] didn't change. She would praise me and all that. And years later, i've come to realize that those effin' teachers treated students nice because they had mothers or guardians always going to school to fetch them, feed them lunch, and give friggin' teachers presents. And my mother was never like that, and i'm glad.
I never kept grudge inside me because i can't but when i remember the bad things they spoke about my mother, i really get mad at them like i can ninja kick them in the face. But just weeks ago, i saw that effin' teacher at e-mall. And i was like giving her a really big grin.SHIT! But i still didn't have enough anger to be mad at all these people at a very long time. And i thank God for that.

SO ANYWAYS, i got off the topic real bad..
this was supposed to be about my nerdy look.
so forget that drama up there..and let's continue..
so yesterday, i had my teeth measured for retainers. We still can't afford that 40k braces. and this morning i took it. it really hurts badly. but it makes sense coz i feel like it really works. And yesterday, mom bought me these green eye glass frames for a hundred and had my eyes checked. We learned that i was near sighted which means that i can't really see from far away. So mom bought me lenses. And i will get the glasses on monday. And maybe i'll have my upper teeth measured for retainers next week. So the next time you see a 'putot' ninja with really short bangs, green glasses and retainers, please don't mind saying 'hi' coz i don't eat people..sahay.. hahahahaha

when i get my glasses, i'll take a pic of myself! what a shame.hahahaha
And that's the start of the adventures of the 'daugdauga ko' ninja.
baaaaaaang!
that's all.

-elle

make-believe

2008-05-08T01:08:00.000-07:00

this is the whole song but i can't record it all at the same time coz of lack of gadgets and stuff.
so to hear it at least completely click the play buttons then the pause. when the videos has loaded fully let the first play then the next video that follows..:D
i hope you enjoy!

" Make-Believe "

2008-05-08T00:10:00.000-07:00

You're so far yet so near
But you can't even hear
This time i'll be here
When you can't shed a tear
I know it's hard to let go..
When there's nothing you can throw..

I am near you don't know
I've been waiting all alone
I've wished for your heart to come
Close to mine, said and done
By then we'd be both inlove
And we would let it show...

[chorus]
But i wake up../But that would be
Making a fool of myself
A fool of myself
I wanna see in your eyes
Love and desire
But that would be make-believe
[adlib]
Make-believe [3x]

You'll see me again someday
You'll regret and you are to blame
But we'll fall in love somehow
We'll put rings and take our vows
Kiss the bride, i said i do
Your the groom, I LOVE YOU

And we'll fall over and over and over and over agaaaaaaaaaaaaain!!!!

[repeat chorus]
I can be your fool [2x]
I can forever be a fool
Make-believe [4x]
Please make it not..

2008-05-07T06:25:00.001-07:00

here's the continuation:D

who is there to blame
me or my love in flames?
but babe you oughta know
my disguise as a friend is off
you look at me the way i see you
and i hope you do love me too (3x)

talk: i do hope so
coz maybe i'm just

making a fool of myself
a fool of myself
coz all i see in your eyes is love and desire
but am i just making believe
fooooool
i can be your fool...
i can live forever as a fool or maybe not

i can't record the whole song coz our cam really sucks a LOT! it sucks BIG time!
ugh..but anyways, i hope i didn't sound disturbing or anything that would haunt you..pfffffft!

song made out of boredom!

2008-05-06T23:39:00.001-07:00

It was actually so boring that i have made a song. it's not done yet. this is just a lil draft.
and i'm putting the lyrics i was mumbling through the whole song. my concentration was a bit off coz i was thinking about how the video would come out knowing that our cam sucks and that it crushes in between videos we've made before..

so far yet so near
but you can't even hear
this time i'll be here
when you can't shed a tear
i know it's hard to let go but please don't let it show..

i am near you don't know
i've been waiting all along
i wish your heart would come
close to mine, said and done
i hope love from you would grow
and you would let me know..

chorus:
am i making a fool of myself
[a fooooool of myself]
oz all i see in your eyes is love and desire
or am i just makin' believe
[fooooooool]

and CUT!

music is <3

2008-05-06T00:46:00.001-07:00

i was listening to Paramore and i thought of making a video and blah blah..
i don't sound like Hayley or anyone good but i sang dude!hahaha

and i'm trying to make this song..i had the draft made but i just wanna finish it before i make another video. if it's done, i'll upload it here pretty soon:D

enjoy getting pissed with my video>:) [[it really sucks]]
ahahaha..and yet i uploaded it! stupid!hahaha

it was a FRIED-day

2008-04-16T01:38:00.000-07:00

(click these pictures to go my multiply, deviantart and friendster sites)

my mum and i went to sto. nino that day.it was really hot, like, Sahara-desert-hot. and then i brought the camera which i put in the pink sock together with all the almost-drained batteries. so after the mass we took pix.
it was really fun going out every once in a while. since it's summer, i haven't been going out the house for days. i didn't even know what day it was:D.

i hope we would go to the beach anytime soon. i just wanna smell the ocean breeze. wahehe.. but i don't wanna get a tan though. i'm dark enough:D for i have a negro-tan..bwahaha..

ugh..i feel like it's gonna be a disaster:(

2008-04-14T22:37:00.000-07:00

was/is your high school nice, exciting,
adventurous, full of unforgettable
stories and conflicts? then send your
story to MMK/maalaala mo kaya..wahaha..
i don't really wanna hear them:D

but really..
did/do you have a friend you can share
your jollibee happy meals with at
saturdays and actually divide your
burgers to halves and dip it to the
ketchup in those little white plastic
containers not minding what the couple
next to you thinks about while they
stare at your red-stained faces?

did/do you have someone you could/can
talk to when you had/have your heart
broken because of friendster and myspace
and she would/will really think of it
seriously and recommended/recommend to
you songs in youtube with lyrics that
relates to what's happened/happening???

do you have a friend who you could go
with after the principal announced that
classes are dismissed early (let us say
4:00 pm) because of some meeting and
then the two of you would go to
someplace (in my case --julie's
fastfood) where you would buy only what
your money can afford and never notice
how time flew so fast that it's already
5 past 7 and you haven't finished
talking and chatting about just one
topic yet???

do you have a friend who calls you at
9:45 (after school) and then you were
laughing so hard your sister tells you
to shut up coz it's already 12 midnight
and that's just when you realize that
"hey, it is 12 midnight..IT REALLY IS 12
MIDNIGHT!?! geeezzzzz!"....then you both
hung up not coz there'll be a test the
first period tomorrow about solving
stuff in math where you can just cheat
and all of you can ..[and no one bothers
to tell Mrs. B. 'cause she knows it] but
because if you're late you will have to
stay in the library and miss the
geometry test and if your lucky you stay
there for an hour or two with your crush
in the higher level (like before..it was
the 4th year CATS..next school year we
are all CATS!!and it's bullcr*p) ???

do you have a friend who you can cry to
when an 'angel' turns out to be a
'devil-in-disguise' who just whipped
your soul with its harsh words and
cracked your heart with its thorny lies
which he/she (i don't wanna be
specific..bwahaha) has made about you
and scattered that effin' stupid story
all over the place (this time both our
sections-->specific)?? and then later
on, you two just realize that those
deadly looks they casted upon you were
dumb and stupid and that they didn't
look cute like a bubbly 5-year-old would
have looked like when it snobs...they
only looked like mad b*tches who thought
you've stolen away their expected mates
for the night..i mean for the

moment..bwahahaha..(evil laugh)

daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang!!!!
i'm gonna miss you mar.. but that's if

mutransfer jud ka bayuta ka!:((..nyahahaha

my blogspot became an instant online album..haha

2008-04-03T09:55:00.000-07:00

the new techniques i've learned!

2008-04-02T06:46:00.000-07:00

me and ate shak..(again)
i learned how to make round edges and all that!

it's really funny how other people get to like what i make coz actually, i don't plan what i try to make..it just pops out and "voila", there it is! But i don't really edit stuff just like that, it really takes time and effort! I have friends who ask me to do their pics but it's not that simple.
one: i don't own a PC, it's not MY pc..it is OUR pc.! which means that i have to share the time with the other people in the house.
two: i have to do chores at home. i'm not one of those rich kid, yah know!
three: i have to do mine first! hahaha

then again, i can't say that to their faces...i'm not that rude, yet:))hahahaha
but anyways, this hobby really makes me happy :D and i am contented of what i can do:D

the "BOND-day"

2008-03-26T08:10:00.001-07:00

the BOND day it is:D

me and ate shak trying hard to be the aysklem models..haha

i lovah this pose!haha

nyahaha..
shak: FTW!
elle: unsa?..english nsad!hmp!

i have soooooooooooo much time in the world that i can't even type much right now:p~ irony eh?

anyways, today i went to the school to return the USB where the pictures needed for the TVJQ. i don't know why they are still pursuing that mag when it's already summer...useless ayt? but i didn't have any choice. i am a blah blah editor *show off!

then i went to viel's place but she wasn't there. so i just went home and decided to go with my mom and sister. we went to the court for something like a trial but it turned out the defendant didn't come. uggh..i hate them, but as God says,"love your enemy". my mum's courage and faith in God just awes me. she just did her best and let God do the rest. i just hope that that we'll have enough money to buy that HOLGA 120n starter kit i've been dreaming for days!haha..is that too much for a dream?

so we just came with the lawyer to his office which was at sulpicio lines..yes, he's their lawyer too..cool huh! and we actually saw Cokaliong!the real one!hahaha

and then we went to SM to EAT!!!FOOD!!!hahaha

and now i'm telling you all these!haha..or should i say, i'm telling myself all these:))

buhbuh!

the BOND day

2008-03-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

it was a day OFF!

2008-03-21T09:25:00.000-07:00

this is my new multiply background:D(click to view link)

the other side (down: the "i dunno guy", tita, granny, my tita who's about to leave, mum, kuya alvin)
(up: uncle, the other tita, mabel, and sam:D)

it was a family day![without kuya though:(]. i went to the airport with mum. we just wanted to see my aunt before she leaves, (for switzerland) but it's just for the summer. it was really hot that day. like the sun's rays could burn my eyes:(( . we spent 2 hours there, sitting, eating a LOT of fries, and chatting. i was so full, i didn't notice how time flew so fast. and there tita went.

so we rode in that guy's mini-van (i dunno him, hehe). it was SO SO SO hot inside that tin-can! ugh..i could hardly breathe..pfffffft..i was sweating profusely and my whole body was a total mess! my face was melting down with the concealer:( . and my cousin mistakenly brought the umbrella with her. mum was really mad at me. like, when we got off that really hot 'oven', she was like, "nganu wa man nimo dad-a? ha? nganu imo man gikalimtan ang payung!!!blah blah blah!" ..and i was like ,"ang2 unahon tu nako..init kaau wa ko kabantay."..and she hit me with the fan she was holding. yeah, my mum's a brute herself, hahaha. ugh..i didn't talk to her until my sister came after us at the church. and then my father came with a bagful of ampaw, chicharon, bud2, and all those stuff from CAR-CAR! (carcar, no wonder:D). then after the mass, KFC was my first choice but they preferred chowking. and i started talking, food was the way:D haha.. then we bought stuff at (that grocery store there in redemptorist church..i forgot:p~). ate bought 3 magazines for a hundred and mum bought a lot of good FOOD! yey! ..when we came home, ate cooked, pup fed me:)) and mum ..i dunno..i think she was watching TV:D..and my bro?..he was about to go to Bantayan for the holy week with his friends..haha..he's gonna get "charcoaled" when he gets home.:))...and then ate washed the dishes and cleaned the kitchen..while i was so rude just sitting before the monitor, and just doing stuff on the internet. then we watched southpark and then happy slip. we had good laughs. hahaha..that's all for now. ugh..it's so late already:(..almost one in the morning:(..buhbye..:D

ate tsuk-tsak and me:D..didn't mean to wear the same hoodie:))

me trying to sip one of those "chowking" sauces..haha

check this out:D

2008-03-18T03:09:00.000-07:00

"Emerson Drive"

have some time to check out this band. this trio might fit your taste:D

(click to view link)^_^

almost-there VAIN photos:))

2008-03-15T23:30:00.000-07:00

this is me giving shark-oh a lick:D

the JOD love:))

hello operator..?!?!

yeah uh..here she comes:))

here's a sample:D

2008-03-15T11:22:00.000-07:00

haha..darn it..it's 2:39 am and i'm sleepy:))

continue next time:p

why am i always in trouble?

2008-03-14T08:01:00.000-07:00

11:14 pm
i so hate it..i get SLAPPED for asking permission to go to a beach party. why am i not fit in this perfect family? why do i feel like i'm no better than a rock? i feel so small. does everyone feel this way once in a while?..or is it just me? i thought being in this perfect family is like having everything..but i was wrong...being in a perfect family is to be perfect yourself. how can i be ever like that? i'm not blaming anyone, i'm just feeling so down and low right this instance.:( and i think i'm getting really depressed. not because i can't go with my friends, but because i can't be the person they want me to be.:(

11:43
but there's this one person who tried hard to make me laugh just now:D he told me corny jokes [[which were really funny]] and i laughed with him:D thanks to you i understood my parents better:D

the last FRIDAY of school year 07-08

2008-03-14T04:34:00.000-07:00

we're leaving our classroom this messy!

probably our last oreos till june...lol...

they're as busy as bees![[and me? well..]]look down:D

i was just messin' around with marrah:))
and look what she did!
i think i totally lost my mind:))

[[to view more of our pics, just click this]] ---> punja

and yesterday, our group passed the project in which we had to make a copy of the British crown. i think we did well. i think i did most of the work but it's cool coz my other group mates were a lot of help:D here's a picture of our "obra maestra"!!!

that's not a good shot! [[i look freaky]]

and tomorrow is the farewell party. my classmates are going to the beach. they wanted me to go but mum won't let me:(...she says it's too dangerous and that no adult is coming with us. i understand that but as Eunice said "even if you're at home watching TV...there's still danger". and i know that because danger chooses no time, no place.it could be here and now"..
i feel so disappointed right now, coz everyone's coming but me:(

how i wish i could cast a spell on her and she'd just give me cash and let me go:(
hahaiss...

i feel so sad and depressed:((
(and i'll be bored the whole weekend)

showing-off:D

2008-03-13T08:50:00.002-07:00

this is me [singing like a retard ROFL:))] ...i hope i didn't ruin your appetite:D

..i was kinda not xure if this video would work coz this was like, the 5th time i took a vid..coz there was something wrong with the cam [[the video would go "kssssssshhhh" in the middle part]] and i was singing again and again and i was about to give up :)) ...this was the only one that didn't have the "ksssssssssshhhh" sound, btw.
my
so there it is..the final product of the unwanted!..haha..enjoy my displeasing performance:))

the "The Voice Junior Quill" mag!

2008-03-12T02:18:00.000-07:00

the staff and the writers!see me there?..posing like a saint:))

shut up!..or i'll throw this ROCK on you!lelz!

climbing up there wasn't easy!:((

haha..that's vielai and me..(i call her that)

ugh..these are some photos from our mag-staff pictorial. We didn't really need the pictures that much,we just wanted to skip classes:D

in the mag, i was supposed to be the cartoonist but due to some stuff on the way..i was made the layout-editor. and it's really harD! and i have to edit the articles (which is not my job) coz the teachers are really busy calculating the grades. i have to type this, edit that, read this, and save that! and i have to edit pics and still draw (even if wasn't made cartoonist :p~).

but it's FUN though:D ..i feel really responsible like i can win a grammy award or something:))
i feel like i am about to accomplish a mission:))

being one of the staff!

2008-03-11T09:45:00.000-07:00

i never expected it to be this hard! like, i was supposed to do the things a "layout editor" is not entitled to do. but i really think it's fun. i have to skip classes just to edit articles and other stuff. i 'bow' down to those who do this kind of work everyday. you can never say it's that easy, coz it's harder than you think it is. you have to stay up late (just like now) and catch up with the deadlines. And the pressure from the expectations of the people just makes everything more intense. *sigh

well, here's a rough of what i made. i really hope this would be good enough.

***sighs
it's already 12:56 in the morning and i have school tomorrow..i need to rest..pffftt..

meeting "moymoy"

2008-03-11T08:57:00.000-07:00

This is moymoy. i met her at my aunt's place. they have adopted moymoy for a week now. she was a very cuddly pup! she would run after my cuzin and play with her all day long. she doesn't ruin things...or maybe just a little bit.:D
i fell in love with her. she was so cute that she looked like a stuffed toy! she was not the noisy type too, which made her better than the other pups i met before. and when she gets tired, she would just lie flat on the floor and ignores everything:))

isn't she lovely? **giggles

i'm being sucked down..

2008-03-11T03:17:00.000-07:00

ugh..can't get in my own self's mind-party!

i dunno what i'm feeling lately. i feel mad, sad, depressed but i still laugh. i can't get in myself that much to know what i feel. i was mad because of those gossips and all... i was sad because of the fact that my old batch mates are the ones i'm mad at... but at the same time i still laugh with my friend despite all those bad things that has happened. and there's nothing i could do to let go of this drama..worse, our year level is divided only to two sections..how the heck am i gonna hide away from them?..duhhh..i want to just end this and start a new life in a different school with people who are less complicated!!!

***just two more weeks of awkward situations' to bear...

i can't help it..i'm mad!

2008-03-08T08:38:00.000-08:00

this is me and marrah

it was a long time ago:D

i really don't know why my temper got that high(yesterday). i mean, there's this girl in school and there was an issue about my friend, marrah, going out with her BF which was exaggerated too much. then yesterday, she called my friend. of course, i went with her and then the girl started blabbing about this and that until this line rang a bell "why are you denying? don't you have any conscience?..he was drunk.. why did you do that?" (in a very offensive manner). my friend was in awe and i knew that everything was just so wrong. i didn't realize i was already talking and i remember myself say "huh?..well, marrah here has nothing to lose, and we all know that you do." (my eyebrows were really useful that day..hahaha)
i didn't intend to quarrel, i never did. it was just so fast and until now.. i'm mad inside. and everyone in their class has got it all wrong. they think i was just out of my league and it was all marrah's fault which i disagree. we all have 2 weeks left till summer. and i dunno if i can stand watching those meaningful looks they give me..duhhh..and then, they exaggerated what happened..blah blah blah..talk your heart out because i don't give a damn..marrah and i will still keep laughing and you will waste your time talking about US! ((evil laugh))

know me first..

2008-03-08T08:11:00.000-08:00

ugh..my first blog..yey!..so as usual, i'll do the introduction.. i'm MARIA..but i'm called elle, punja, manx and so on. i don't really know much about myself either but i'll try. :D well, i just turned 16 last February and i don't really feel that good about it. i feel old you see but that's okay, at least i lasted this long! (haha) anyways, i'm in 3rd year high school but most of the time, i get mistakenly believed to be older than i am. many thought i was in college which is not a big deal but it makes me think that i look old and i don't like that but there's nothing i can do:p! now.. i'm just waiting for school to end and i'm still thinking of what this summer has in store for me. i plan on having a diet and more exercise because lately, i feel heavy and fat! haha..i think this is all a part of growing up and this is something i don't wanna miss. yeah, i'm the period where everything is fiction and reality. dammit, it's hard!!! but i like it!:p uhm..and about me, i'm not the blah blah blah type..but i'm not that shy either..i guess i'm both chatty and noiseless! i love music and i sing while taking a shower (everyone does that, ayt?). i'm just a common extra-ordinary and i live for God, my family and my friends (my real friends). really, that's all i can think of now..

and there's a recent picture of myself and owl as in Oh-wl...