why am i always in trouble?

11:14 pm
i so hate it..i get SLAPPED for asking permission to go to a beach party. why am i not fit in this perfect family? why do i feel like i'm no better than a rock? i feel so small. does everyone feel this way once in a while?..or is it just me? i thought being in this perfect family is like having everything..but i was wrong...being in a perfect family is to be perfect yourself. how can i be ever like that? i'm not blaming anyone, i'm just feeling so down and low right this instance.:( and i think i'm getting really depressed. not because i can't go with my friends, but because i can't be the person they want me to be.:(

11:43
but there's this one person who tried hard to make me laugh just now:D he told me corny jokes [[which were really funny]] and i laughed with him:D thanks to you i understood my parents better:D