a complete version

so here's the complete version of 'make-believe'.
ugh..it took me more than an hour to finish this.
my back hurts real bad but i hope it's worth watching/listening:D

make them astray

i've made another song.
haha..made an experiment with the movie maker.
hope you like it:D

the 'GEEK-face'

[my green glasses]

Just got them a minute ago. Ugh its depressing to know my mom paid 700 bucks for the lenses and a hundred for the frames, but it helps. At first i feel like stumbling or something. Now i'm trying to get used to it:D . i really look like jerk wearing this..DAMMIT!!!>:p

the CAR-CAR escapade

[ate shak and me]

i was awaken by a tap on my thighs, it was my mom. She was trying to wake me and my sister. Coz we were planning to go to Car-car for the fiesta. And so there we went. It was my first time to ride on a bus and i really had an amazing time sitting beside my sister who was sitting next to the window[dammit]haha..

[mama, me and papa with the very old house at the background]

[on the way to the church]

[me and my mom]

so we stopped and the bus dropped us off at the Car-car church. It was really cool being so old and so splendid after all those years have passed over it. When we got in the church, there was a baptism going on and there were a lot of kids all over the place. So we just sat there and mom lit candles. Then we took pictures, too.

[the kids(cat cat cat haha)]


[me, mama and papa at gaisano Car-car]

And then we went to gaisano to meet Alsfyr (he's a nephew of the one who invited us there). And we rode off to their house which was really nice. It had a big garden in front and the design of the inside of the house was really cute too. We ate there and all that. We took pics and blah blah. I took off my retainers coz it really hurts very very muchos! And it rained so we went in the house and they made me sing there(karaoke/videoke).[the garden]

[the flowers were very cute]

I picked flowers there too. They were lovely. And i sang there like i was in some sort of MTV music video.LOL.(no one hears me though ang2 man sad amaw!)

[looks like a market to me..hehe]

A little later we waved goodbye and went to the market. Vendors approached us with their good stuff like ampaw, chicharon, bukhayo, and many more. We went in the part of the market where everything they sold was "lichon". I was mesmerized with the unique place, it was wonderful.DANG! haha..we bought lichon too. I t tastes really really good! And then we went home (we rode the bus again:D).

[ate took a picture of me before we left urgello]

That's all for now.

-lablab; punja

the BECOMING

Since i was a kid, i've always had a pretty smile, not until the day i lost both my front teeth and had these ugly ones permanently grow. As a kid, i would never mind what other people had to say, with that, i ignored the 'about-to-be-monstrosity' my teeth will become. When i turned 10 i notice how different my teeth were compared to others and this time i realized that bucked-teeth don't look good, i realized that i don't look good:( .

At a young age i felt depression. I felt so ugly, though i didn't dream of being some beauty queen, i really had very low self-esteem...maybe i never had self-esteem. By then i've always related myself to the girls in the show "The Swan" where geeks, nerds, in other words, the 'not good looking' would undergo cosmetic surgery and would have their bucked teeth operated, their bellies tucked in, and their whole selves changed.

Also when i was studying my early grade school in Lahug Elementary School, i had criticism. My classmates would call me names but i never got into fights because i was always the nice kid. At this time, i was always bullied. My classmates would tell me to do this and that, draw this and that, and make their assignments. My mom was a school teacher in our school but i never used her to abuse others like how they have hurt me and i never told her. I was always the funny and happy kid in school. The one who doesn't study but still get in the top ten. The one who joins dance, art, singing and academic competitions. The one who represents the school together with some other fellow students but believe it or not, i never believed in myself. I never thought that i was someone unique. I always felt like i'm not good enough and i will never be.


One time, in third-grade, i was sitting on my seat doing the usual talking with my classmates[Essem,Fellnah,Limbert]. And then my teacher [Ms. Malinao] said, "Class, lain diay ko class? Sadista diay ko class? naa lagey parent nga nireklamo tungod kai lain daw mig (referring to our grade level teachers) batasan kai mamili mig students. Naa juy mama sa inyung classmates ngari ai.nga..blah blah blah..". And so i really didn't have any idea who she was talking about. I looked around and tried to ask my classmates but they all whispered to one another looking at me. Being the innocent kid, i didn't get it! Until the bell rang and still nobody, i mean nobody talked to me. I was some sort of alien they were all scared to talk to. By that time, i realized that i was the one my teacher was talking about. By then on, my teachers treated me differently. Only my favorite teacher [Ms. Estella] didn't change. She would praise me and all that. And years later, i've come to realize that those effin' teachers treated students nice because they had mothers or guardians always going to school to fetch them, feed them lunch, and give friggin' teachers presents. And my mother was never like that, and i'm glad.
I never kept grudge inside me because i can't but when i remember the bad things they spoke about my mother, i really get mad at them like i can ninja kick them in the face. But just weeks ago, i saw that effin' teacher at e-mall. And i was like giving her a really big grin.SHIT! But i still didn't have enough anger to be mad at all these people at a very long time. And i thank God for that.

SO ANYWAYS, i got off the topic real bad..
this was supposed to be about my nerdy look.
so forget that drama up there..and let's continue..
so yesterday, i had my teeth measured for retainers. We still can't afford that 40k braces. and this morning i took it. it really hurts badly. but it makes sense coz i feel like it really works. And yesterday, mom bought me these green eye glass frames for a hundred and had my eyes checked. We learned that i was near sighted which means that i can't really see from far away. So mom bought me lenses. And i will get the glasses on monday. And maybe i'll have my upper teeth measured for retainers next week. So the next time you see a 'putot' ninja with really short bangs, green glasses and retainers, please don't mind saying 'hi' coz i don't eat people..sahay.. hahahahaha

when i get my glasses, i'll take a pic of myself! what a shame.hahahaha
And that's the start of the adventures of the 'daugdauga ko' ninja.
baaaaaaang!
that's all.

-elle

make-believe

this is the whole song but i can't record it all at the same time coz of lack of gadgets and stuff.
so to hear it at least completely click the play buttons then the pause. when the videos has loaded fully let the first play then the next video that follows..:D
i hope you enjoy!

" Make-Believe "

You're so far yet so near
But you can't even hear
This time i'll be here
When you can't shed a tear
I know it's hard to let go..
When there's nothing you can throw..

I am near you don't know
I've been waiting all alone
I've wished for your heart to come
Close to mine, said and done
By then we'd be both inlove
And we would let it show...

[chorus]
But i wake up../But that would be
Making a fool of myself
A fool of myself
I wanna see in your eyes
Love and desire
But that would be make-believe
[adlib]
Make-believe [3x]

You'll see me again someday
You'll regret and you are to blame
But we'll fall in love somehow
We'll put rings and take our vows
Kiss the bride, i said i do
Your the groom, I LOVE YOU

And we'll fall over and over and over and over agaaaaaaaaaaaaain!!!!

[repeat chorus]
I can be your fool [2x]
I can forever be a fool
Make-believe [4x]
Please make it not..

here's the continuation:D

who is there to blame
me or my love in flames?
but babe you oughta know
my disguise as a friend is off
you look at me the way i see you
and i hope you do love me too (3x)

talk: i do hope so
coz maybe i'm just

making a fool of myself
a fool of myself
coz all i see in your eyes is love and desire
but am i just making believe
fooooool
i can be your fool...
i can live forever as a fool or maybe not


i can't record the whole song coz our cam really sucks a LOT! it sucks BIG time!
ugh..but anyways, i hope i didn't sound disturbing or anything that would haunt you..pfffffft!

song made out of boredom!

It was actually so boring that i have made a song. it's not done yet. this is just a lil draft.
and i'm putting the lyrics i was mumbling through the whole song. my concentration was a bit off coz i was thinking about how the video would come out knowing that our cam sucks and that it crushes in between videos we've made before..

so far yet so near
but you can't even hear
this time i'll be here
when you can't shed a tear
i know it's hard to let go but please don't let it show..

i am near you don't know
i've been waiting all along
i wish your heart would come
close to mine, said and done
i hope love from you would grow
and you would let me know..

chorus:
am i making a fool of myself
[a fooooool of myself]
oz all i see in your eyes is love and desire
or am i just makin' believe
[fooooooool]

and CUT!

music is <3

i was listening to Paramore and i thought of making a video and blah blah..
i don't sound like Hayley or anyone good but i sang dude!hahaha

and i'm trying to make this song..i had the draft made but i just wanna finish it before i make another video. if it's done, i'll upload it here pretty soon:D

enjoy getting pissed with my video>:) [[it really sucks]]
ahahaha..and yet i uploaded it! stupid!hahaha