the NEGLECTED who WASN'T

After this weekend and a day after, another month will be officially over. Time flew fast by me, but for a short period of time, i've learned a gazillion things and i know i've made a better being of myself. I've kept myself hidden beneath the shadows of my imperfections that, i, myself cannot escape. I've lived my whole life thinking of my flaws, that i have over-looked my better side. But just when i thought that my life was senseless and that i was another background character, i saw the faces of the masses i've long ignored. With just a blink of my blind eyes, i saw the grinning faces of my friends whom i've made laughing with a simple phrase that has come out of my mouth unplanned.


The next day i skipped school to buy my school uniform and some books. That afternoon, as i walked myself to the rooms of another school family, they gave me an approach i did not quite expect. Most of them asked where i was, why i wasn't present, where i have been and so on. And the next day, i wore my PE uniform with much excitement. Until later that day, the teacher announced that PE uniforms were compulsory. I was surprised with their reactions and what some of them said. It came up to me that they were blaming me because they thought that if not for me, the whole batch would have agreed on not buying the set and that they could've still begged the principal's decision. And because of all that commotion (plus abnormalon pa jud tawn ko..kai pebrero, saputon usahay) i cried . Not vulgarly in front of them of course, i'm not aiming for attention. I made the mixed emotions out of my system by wetting up my face with tears in the comfort rooms. But then i had to stop and go back for the class. I tried to hide, but they noticed. And they asked and i saw concern in their faces and expressions, that they would hit whoever has done wrong to me. On that same time i felt rejected, i did feel IMPORTANT . Because with the three years of being in the same school with 60 plus same batch mates, i never thought i meant something to them. And now, though there's no ample proof, i trust they do love me!:D and i hope they all know how much they mean to me:).

to all my friends in swu:
i love all of you guys! and that is not about to change. I will never forget how each one of you gave your shares as being a part of my life. you made me feel special and i hope i'm making you feel the same way, too. for our last year together as classmates, let's make the best of our days!!! yahoooooo!!!
i lalab you all!! (tight hugs and kisses!)
bilib jud ko ninyu kai mga WARYORS jud mo!!LONG LEEEEEB!!!!!hahahahahaha

===punja