strummin...

..STRINGS..

yeah, i'm gonna talk stuff about the guitar and how i fell in love with this instrument:p

i first imagined myself holding a guitar on-stage and singing when i saw Hayley (paramore) play live, NOT. haha..it was as early as when i was 5 and i saw my sister play it like some pro (for me) but this urge got stronger when i saw Hayley years later. I felt like there's a need for me to learn how to play strings. It's not like i wanna become like her (have a band and all that). It's just that that time i was in search for who i was and what i am going to be (puberty stage..haha) and when i saw her i said in my mind, "someday, i'll discover myself, see who i am and what i really want..music" and it wasn't because she was cool or anything, i just saw her become who she managed herself to be and i really really want myself to have what most people lack, uniqueness and originality.


But later, i realized that everyone is unique, one way or another. Though most kids today look like clones (no offense:D), God made each one of us different from one another. And i know that i am different, you are different, even twins are different. I once thought that if i learn how to play the guitar maybe i'd stand out but no, i was wrong. Playing is not about standing out or becoming a better being, it was my desire to play it and to sing along with the tunes i make.

I first learned to put my fingers on those dots and non-hand-friendly strings when i asked my sisters to teach me, i was already 14 (guwang na!). Then i learned songs but i still can't do it good enough and then i stopped because my hands really hurt bad and my mind was like "this looks easy but why can't i do it?". And then months later i missed holding that piece of wood so i tried playing again. That time i felt comfortable with it, though it still hurts a bit. And then my sister, Tzie went to Switzerland with Aries and nobody else had the time to teach me. So i tried to learn on my own but later on, i got tired and stopped.

This summer, my sister and i stayed in the same room. If we were at home, we had to be on that room for the whole day and it would be awkward if we just stared at each other so yeah, we talk and surf the net and sing, and laugh, and play MAIDS..ako amo xa maid..haha..athek lng. She enrolled into summer classes while i stayed inside the room for like two months and i only had the chance to go out if i had to buy something or if we went to church. IT WAS BORING!!! So i spent my days browsing bla blahs, writing stuff,having strict diet (tsar) and nothing else. Until their classes were over and she had the time to teach me how to play the guitar,YAY! i still had one month to spend my summer in something relevant so i have made two songs now, though they're not good, i'm still proud that i've done something other than sleeping and eating.

I don't play the guitar well, i can't even play hard-to-play songs but i'm still trying to learn how to play a song without chords, just listening to it. My siblings make me jealous:(, coz they all play well. (pero ok lang..mada pag cheese burger)

Now, classes are gonna start after two days, and i really wanna share my songs. Like, i wanna see the impressions on their faces, whether they like it or not. But i don't really wanna show off coz there's nothing to boast anyway..haha..

I hope the first day of school's going to be A-OKAY! OLRAYT! ayus ba bords..hahaha


-elle-